secret diary

SCHEDULE PACKED !

2009-02-06T21:19:00.003+08:00

TESTS !
have lots and lots of test this and next week !
monday - physics test ( 3 chapters ) & emaths test .
tuesday - chemistry test .
wednesday - geography test.

MARCH 3 - having emaths mock test ( based on sec3 stuff ) :D
MARCH 5 - having physics mock test ( based on sec3 stuff ) :X

haix..

RED CROSS TRAINING !
anyway,
today's training is quite fun .
only now den i realized that training can be tough but fun .
hahas .
REALLY !

wasted 2 and a half hours listening to ms jey .
but got some important matters nid to settle .
haix.
oni haf 1 hour of footdrill..

left with 1 more training to FDC .
hope that we can really made it to e second round.
although we did not prepare for second round .
but at least we can pass e first round..

REDCROSS ..
- got cross country duty ( taking part )
- got art festival ( taking part )
- got speech day ( taking part )
hahas.

WORKED !
really don't have much time to go to work.
now evem saturdays got amaths extra lesson.
actually i like.
haha.
reallt have to work hard le.
so many sec3 stuff i nid to revise.
sec4 stuff still a bit duno.
hiax.
wanted to tell boon sen that i will be taking study leave starting from 1st march.
hope he can approve .

posted by piingx.

WENT FOR CHINGAY VOLUNTARY WORK !

2009-02-01T17:02:00.003+08:00

went for chingay on friday and yesterday.
friday is e rehearsal and yesterday is e actual day.

i went there as a volunteer,
twisting balloons for e audience.
anyway,
stayed on friday to watch chingay for awhile,
very nice.
hahas.

IT'S FUN ! !

found out that our school had alot of voluntary work de thing.
hahas.

posted by piingx
:)

VERY LONG NEVER POST LE !

2009-02-01T16:53:00.003+08:00

really VERY VERY VERY long never post le.
hahas.
anyways,
quite busy recently.
but duno busy wif wat.
don't look like i am busy with studying .
haix.

quite slack wif studying recently .
want to do well wif O level.
but,
dun feel like studying .

really must start studying le,
many many ppl had already started.
except for me.
i still got so many thing haven revise.
haix..

anyways,
still working in mac.
can't bare to stop helping boon sen .
see first ba.
haix..

posted by piingx

GROWN UP BITS BY BITS EVERYDAY !

2009-01-16T18:44:00.002+08:00

look like i had grown up le .
grown up bits by bits everyday .

anyway ,
some unhappy thing happen last sunday ,
sad for e first 1 to 2 days ,
then thought it through le .
after thursday ,
everything must end .
cannot be sad le .
and i had done it ! !

hahas

posted by piingx

WENT STUDY WITH XUANRUkor AND ZHENKHANsir :)

2009-01-16T18:40:00.003+08:00

3rd week of year 2009 ..
nothing seems fun to me recently ,
or maybe it's fun but i dun haf e mood and time to blog .

anyway ,
recently ,
went study with xuanruKOR and zhenkhanSIR !
it is quite fun .
surprisingly ,
i can focus .
hahas.
but we r oni doing hw ,
not revising .

posted by piingx

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL 2009

2009-01-04T23:20:00.003+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL - 02 JANUARY 2009 !

first time in e morning ,
vice principle give good progress award,
den,
mrs menon talk for about 1+ hour ,
den,
miss chin talk about school rules all this .

talk for VERY VERY LONG ! !
until around 9plus den go back class for class contact session .
if it is last year ,
i would hate it alot !
cos mr bala is e form teacher .
BUT,
now i like !
COS MS AGNES HO IS OUR FORM TEACHER !
DAMN HAPPY !
CO-FORM IS MS KELLY CHO !
BOTH FORM AND CO-FORM R VERY NICE !
really like them alot !

sec 1 ms cho teacher me science ,
sec 2, 3 & 4 ms ho teach us science !
maybe SCIENCE TEACHER r e best ! !

many things had really change ,
alot of teachers left .
and alot new teacher .
hope that it would a good changes .
e position of many of e teachers had also change .
CONGRATS to them !

posted by piingx,
STUDY HARD FOR 'O' LEVEL !

THANKS SHARON !

2009-01-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

went to work as usual .
nothing much happen during e work.

after work ,
went chatting wif diying & sharon at long john .

after that diying have to go home le ,
so sharon & i continue chatting at hub .
chat about lots of stuff ! !
had fun chatting wif her.
feeling much better after telling her all e stuff !
THANKS SHARON ! !

hope that we can go out study tgt more :)

to xuanruKOR & yunxinMEI ,
oso hope that we can go out study tgt more :)
MUST WORK HARD FOR 'O' LEVEL !
really MUST MUST MUST !

JIAYOU FOR THOSE TAKING 'O' LEVEL THIS YEAR !

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! !

2009-01-01T03:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! !

&

for those gg back to school ,
TODAY IS E LAST DAY OF HOLIDAY !
ENJOY E LAST DAY !
seeya back in school !

20 PLUS MORE HOURS TO SCHOOL STARTS !

2ND TIME CRIED IN MAC !

2009-01-01T02:55:00.003+08:00

30 december 2008

LATE FOR WORK FOR 2hours30minutes.
do runner today !

boonsen say wan to try e new way for runner.
which is having 1 drink-drawer in charge of bringing e drink to e counter .
& e runner haf to run for 2 counters.

boonsen is helping me most of e time ,
THANKS !
if not i will be busy to death .

it is really BUSY !
& because of something ,
I CRIED !
this is e 2nd time i cried in MAC.
:X

posted by piingx

MACchalet !

2009-01-01T02:47:00.003+08:00

28 - 29 december 2008

went for MACchalet !
organize by junxian .
assist by junliang .

it is quite FUN !
went to ESCAPE !
1st time gg there .
WILL GO AGAIN DE !

something that is boring during e chalet
is that most of them sleep at night .
oni me & sharon did not sleep during e night .

i was talking on e phone wif xuanru .
talked for 3 hour plus .
hahas :)

posted by piingx :)

HOLIDAY ENDING SOON !

2008-12-27T23:06:00.002+08:00

HOLIDAY IS ENDING SOON !
2ND OF JANUARY START SCHOOL LE !
:X
6 MORE DAYS ! ! !

really don't like gg back to school !
because next year 'O' level !
really very stress le !
got so many PROBLEMS now !
:X

posted by STRESSEDpiingx
:X

SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE IS E BEST ?!

2008-12-27T22:58:00.003+08:00

went to NTUC today .
pei DIYING buy her stuffs .
& we saw eileen ;)
she say i turn DARKER !!
:X
really !
compared to ting ,
i turn DARKER ALOT !
because of REDCROSS !

this few days ,
work, work & work .
wrote a resignation letter le .
gg to hand to lisan soon .
really had decided to quit .
but would still help the, until CNY .
they short of crew :X

anyways ,
always hang out with DIYING during e holidays .
sometimes with sharon & stacy too .
it's like i duno how long never go out with YUNXIN they all le .

many people say SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE IS E BEST !
because of SECONDARY SCHOOL FREN

posted by piingx

LAST RED CROSS TRAINING !

2008-12-23T19:34:00.002+08:00

today is e last RED CROSS training for this holiday .
e 3VIs came .
e performance for today is quite disappointing .
e squad r still not bonded tgt .

anyways ,
had physical training too .
oni got a few of us do ,
cos some of them r unwell .

today's PT is crazy .
it is tough ,
but quite fun .
we ran ,
frog jumg ,
50 star jump ,
sit-ups ,
inclined pull up
& lastly do monkey bar .

after that ,
continue footdrills .
went for lunch at 1.30P.M .
was very hungry !
never ate anything for breadfast .

nothing to post le .

posted by piingx :X

TIRING DAY !

2008-12-21T22:57:00.003+08:00

was late for work again !
I REALLY FEEL LIKE QUITTING MAC !
it is so tiring everyday !
TRAINING & WORKING .

anyways ,
did hashbrown & fries & back sink .
today's work is quite tiring ,
but at least i do not have to do counter .
i really hate being a counter crew .

gave
SHARON ,
STACY ,
DIYING ,
HENNY &
SHAWNNY
their CHRISTMAS present today .
hope they will like it & will use it .

end work at 4 .
after that ,
went out wif 2nd sister & went home .
very tired :X
TIRING DAY ! !

posted by piingx

SHOP SHOP & SHOP !

2008-12-21T22:25:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY - 20 DECEMBER 2008

was late for work .
so stacy haf to be e cashier .
ting and i are so lucky =]

anyways ,
do DESSERT KIOSK .
there are so little customer in e morning .
was very very boring .
feel like sleeping :X

after work ,
met up wif EUNICEjunior .
brought her to beach road .
to buy her boots .

after that ,
it was quite early ,
so EUNICE suggested that we go BUGIS !

went to BUGIS STREET to SHOP SHOP & SHOP !
really had fun ! !
it had been a long time since i went shopping le .
it is e 1st time tat i went shopping during e holidays .
REAL SHOPPING !

i bought a jacket .
it has both white & black de .
EUNICE & e shop owner said that i look better in white .
but i dun think so ,
so i bought BLACK de .

did not haf enough $$ to buy e other things .
think would go wif ting during e holidays be4 it ends .
haix , holiday ending soon le :X

REALLY REALLY REALLY HAD FUN !
1ST TIME BEING SO HAPPY DURING E HOLIDAY !
THANKS TO EUNICE !
:)

posted by piingx

QUIZ FROM SIEWHWI !

2008-12-19T21:01:00.007+08:00

got this quiz from SIEWHWI's blog.
it is long, but it looks fun too, so decided to do it :)

1.what have you been doing recently?
WORK & RED CROSS TRAINING !
2.do you ever turn your cell phone off?
NOPE. UNLESS BATTERY FLAT .
3.what happened at 10am today?
SLEEPING .
4.when did you last cry?
SHOULD BE DURING SEPTENBER . I still rmb why I cry . Hahas .
5.believe in fate/destiny?
SOMETIMES .
6.what do you want in your life now?
SMILE ALWAYS & ALWAYS BE HAPPY ! !
7.do you carry a umbrella when it rains or just put up ur hood?
WALK IN THE RAIN MOST OF E TIME .
8.whats your favorite thing to have on ur bed?
MY PILLOW
9.what bottoms are you wearing now?
SHORTS
10.whats the nicest thing in ur inbox?
DUNO .
11.do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
NOPE .
12.are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
NOPE .
13.what was the last movie you caught?
BOLT ! watched with XUANRUkor de .
14.what are you proud of?
NOTHING ! i am not good in everything. So I am not proud of everything that I do or had done.
15.what does your oldest text msg in your inbox says?
NOT SURE . lazy to check .
16.what was the last sons you sang out loud?
对不起 by 王子
17.do you have any nicknames?
A LOT ! such as apple, fish cake
18.what does your last text msg says?
NOT SURE !
19.what time did you go to bed last night?
AROUND 4A.M .
20.are you currently happy?
OKAY LA. was very happy when I am very small. was sad this year, but now learned to be more happy le. but still not very happy.
21.who gives you the best advice?
YUNXINmei & XUANRUkor BA .
22.do you eat whipped cream straight from can?
NOPE !
23.who did you talk on the phone last night?
XUANRUkor !
24.is something bugging you now?
COUNTED AS GOT. as compared to last few months, it is not that much le. it always about e same matter.
25.what/who was the last person to make you laugh?
DUNO ! very LONG never truly de laugh le.
26.do you wear toe socks?
NOPE !
27.who was the last person you missed a call from?
EUNICEjunior. jus this morning .
28.have you ever had your heart broken?
YA. OF COURSE . but not that type of going in relationship de.
29.what annoys you most in a person?
BEING VERY PROUD & DISRESPECTFUL !
30.do you have a crush on someone?
LAST FEW MONTHS GOT. now don't have le :)
31.have you ever done cocaine?
WHAT'S THAT?
32.what is the colour of your room?
WHITE.
33.would you kill someone you hate for a billion bucks?
OF COURSE NOT ! THAT'S CRAZY !
34.do you believe in the saying, talk is cheap?
NOPE !
35.who was the last person to lie in your bed?
ME !
36.who was the last person to hug you?
MAMA <33
37.did you see the last person you kissed recently?
NOPE !
38.do you have a life?
to me, life is being always happy. So e answer to this question is NO !
39.have you ever thought someone died, when they didn't?
NOPE !
40.what is the reason behind your profile song?
NO SONG !
41.who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
AH PA! i duno why I suddenly dreamed of him. but I don't know what I dreamed about le :X
42.last time you smiled?
for those really happy de smile, very long ago le. for those normal de smile, maybe today?
43.have you changed this year?
I DID ! CHANGED A LOT ! changed to worst. not my character, is my thinking & mood ! always thinking about things that make me unhappy :X
44.what are you listening to right now?
TELEVISION DE SOUND .
45.are you talking to someone while doing this?
NOPE !
46.do you walk with your eyes closed or open?
OF COURSE IS OPEN !
47.is there a quote you live by?
ALWAYS BE HAPPY & SMILE ALWAYS !
48.do you want someone you can never have?
DEPENDS ON WHO.
49.have you ever played an instrument?
NOPE !
50.what was the worst idea you had this week?
if it is for this year, the worst idea is to die and give up on everything ! as for this week, is that I do not want to win e red cross footdrill competition le. as for now, there are nothing worst I am thinking de :)
51.what were you doing last night at 11pm?
WATCHING BANG BANG TANG !!
52.are you happy with your love life now?
NOT IN ANY REALTIONSHIP NOW. SO IT IS HAPPY !
53.what song best describe your love life?
DUNO !
54.does the person know you like him/her?
I DON'T LIKE ANYONE NOW ! SERIOUSLY !
55.who always makes you laugh?
XUANRUkor & SOME OF MY FRIENDS BA . as for kor, he is also e 1 that last time make me sad.
56.do you speak other languages other that english?
CHINESE
57.favorite websites?
BLOGGER !
58.what is your middle name?
YU !
59.

60.what do you think you are like?
I DUNO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF .
61.who will you choose to die with?
MAMA .
62.where have you been today?
AT HOME !
63.what game do you play often?
LUMINOUS BLOCK CHALLENGE ! in my new handphone de.
64.who are you missing now?
MAMA & MY FRIENDS !
65.if you had to choose between a friend or your lover which will you choose?
BOTH ?
66.what are you doing right now?
THIS QUIZ !
67.which primary school are you from?
TOWNSVILLE !
68.name 3 colors that you like?
BLACK, PINK & PURPLE !
69.what emotion do you like to show?
HAPPY ?
70.what is your life to you?
SOMETHING THAT IS FULL OF LAUGHTERS AND TEARS !

finally finish e 70 questions !
but question 59 had gone missing,
so is finish 69 questions !!

MOODY !

2008-12-19T19:08:00.002+08:00

recently really don't have e mood to update .
also don't have e mood to do alot of thing .
REALLY DUNO WHY .
haix .

ting & me wanted to quit mac de job .
but we had not decided yet .
if we quit ,
i will miss SHARON they all de .
& also some of e MANAGER .
i really duno wat to do .
:X

posted by MOODY piingx

NO PAIN = NO GAIN !

2008-12-16T19:00:00.003+08:00

today got red cross training .
2 other VIs came .

we trained for e whole training .
from 9A.M to 12P.M .
den from 1P.M to 3P.M.

although it is quite a tough training ,
a nervous training for all of us !
but i believed that all of us had improved !
& e debrief was quite fun !
hahas .

i remembered what JOEsir had said ,
NO PAIN = NO GAIN !

today ,
we really had pain .
our neck and shoulder is like so sour ( suan ) .
hope that we will gain something too !

JOEsir asked us whether r we really interested in joining
FOOTDRILL COMPETITION 2009 .
& i raised up my hand .
i seriously want to win e competition !
i want e school to look up to red cross !

posted by piingx .

VERY LONG DID NOT UPDATE !

2008-12-16T18:55:00.002+08:00

quite a long time never update le .
about 12 days .

last few days really very busy .
it is either working or training .
haix .
everyday have to wake up early !

btw ,
pei xuanru to find felicia & yunxin on sunday .
& we watched bolt .
e movie is not very nice .
e first part was okay ,
but until e back it is so sian le .

actually promise sharon they all to watch with them on mon de ,
but SORRY !!!
i did not .
next time we go watch other movie !
hahas .

posted by piingx =]

QUIZ FROM SIEWHWI !

2008-12-04T19:58:00.002+08:00

1. Who's the person that tagged you?
SIEWHWI!

2. Relationship between you and her?
primary school fren

3. Three impressions of her?
1. friendly
2.concern about fren
3.kind

4. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
i can't imagine if she become my enemy.
& she won't become my enemy.

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?
i won't say anything.
i would only be damn good to him.
hahas

6. Characteristic i like about myself?
duno.

7. Characteristic i hate about myself?
always think about things that make me unhappy.

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?
nothing

9. What do people feel about you?
duno :X

10. Your crush?
i am not sure whether i still like him :X

11. Pass this to 10 people.
1. YUTING
2. EUNICE
3. KAILING
4. LIPING
5. EESIEW
6. CINDY
7. SHARON
8. APPLE
9. SUSAN
10. GLORIA

12. If 5 & 7 were together?
it is not possible

13. Who does 5 like?
duno

14. What colour does 9 like?
duno

15. Say something about 8?
she cute =]

16. Who is 2?
my REDCROSS junior

17. Talk about 3?
my REDCROSSjunior too. BE HAPPY !

18. Who is 10's best friend?
duno

19. Who's the sexiest among all 10?
APPLE & SUSAN

20. What colour does 4 like?
purple ba

21. Is 4 single?
NOPE .

22. Your relationship with 1?
SISTERS !

23. Are 5 & 6 best friends?
NOPE

24. 9's surname?
SIM

25. 7's nickname?
duno

26. Say something to 8.
keep in contact

27. Say something to help 9.
duno

28. Who does 1 admire?
no one

29. Where does 1 live?
she live where i live

30. 10 of them know who you like?
NOPE .

31. Say something to 6 when you see him/her ?
wait until i saw her

32. 10's spouse?
huh?

HELPED AT MCCAFE !

2008-12-04T19:45:00.002+08:00

WEDNESDAY - 03 december 2008

started work at 8.30A.M.
finish work at 2P.M.

ling ching said that she at night down crew.
so YUTING & i helped her during e night too.
from 6P.M to 9P.M.

after that,
there are no beanie at mccafe
from 9P.M to 9.30P.M.
& there r quite alot of customer there .
so we went to help .

shara & boon sen allowed us to help too .
i did some of e drinks myself .
hahas .

posted by piingx =]
thanks my frens for being so concern about me when i am sick.
thanks !

NOT GG FOR RCYC CAMP !

2008-11-28T21:47:00.003+08:00

still having high fever .
but much better le .

went to polyclinic alone to see doctor .
e doctor say my temp is 38.9 degree .
i asked e doctor whether
am i suitable to go for e red cross youth challenge camp ,
she say i am not .
so i asked for a MC for tmr .

ate duck rice for lunch ,
but ate a few spoon of it & stopped eating le .
mei you wei kou .
ate a bread for dinner oni .
now feeling abit hungry .

DUNO WHY I SO EASILY FALL SICK .
WAS REALLY SICK TODAY .
HOPE THAT I CAN GET WELL SOON .

posted by piingx .
:X

HAVING HIGH FEVER !

2008-11-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

THURSDAY - 27 NOVEMBER 2008

was abit sick in e morning .
but still went for red cross training .
during training ,
my flu got worse .
kept sneezing none stop .
actually wanted to go to buy camp de thing
wif claudia & logesh after training de .
but was really too sick le ,
so did not go .
wanted to go only e next day .

after that went home ,
having high fever up to 39.5 degree ,
have bad flu too .
took some medicine & went to sleep .

posted by piingx
:X

XINKU !

2008-11-26T00:51:00.002+08:00

now feeling damn XINKU de .
kept SNEEZING .
like going to fall sick ler .
abit FEVER also .
hais .

lata before sleep must go eat sneezing de pill .
or else tmr sure will remains sick de .

hope tmr will be fine ler .
duno tmr still can go redcross ma .
:X

piinqx (;

WENT OUT WITH XUANRUkor & YUTINGjie !

2008-11-26T00:04:00.002+08:00

TUESDAY - 25 NOVEMBER 2008

WENT OUT WITH XUANRUkor & YUTINGjie TODAY !
IT WAS SO SO SO FUN !

but yunxin mei they all cannot go ,
cos they have dance from 8:30A.M until 7P.M .
it is like so long .

anyways ,
watched BEVERLY HILLS CHIHUAHUA
it is quite NICE & FUNNY !
e chihuahua is SO SO SO CUTE !
hahas .
i simply LOVE REAL DOG !
not XUANRU .
some of u noe why i say this .
hahas .

after that ,
went to XUANRUkor hus .
slack until 8 plus .
pei him go find ZHENKHAN .
about job de thing .
den go KFC eat .

after that ,
go home le .
=]

piinqx (:

SAW XUANRUkor WHEN GG TO WORK ! HAPPY !

2008-11-25T00:13:00.003+08:00

woke up at 12P.M today !
it is consider late !
hahas .

in hub ,
when walking to mac ,
saw XUANRUkor ,
happy to see him worr !
hahas .
so loooooooooong never see him le.
about 10days .
u may not think that it is long ,
but i think that it is .

e first thing he do when he sees me is ..
mess my hair .
hahas .
i never tie my hair ,
so nevermind .
anyway ,
also nothing bad de la .
hahas .
this is e advantage of keeping short hair
LOLS .
:X

worked from 2P.M to 10P.M .
:X
hakim was surprised that i work night shift .
hahas .
he like want me to everyday work night shift .
asked me when will be e next time i working night again .
mayb he like working wif me .
hahas .

damn tired during work .
hungry too .
too early go break le .
hahas
:X
jus ate maggi jus now .

TMR GG OUT WITH XUANRUkor & YUTINGjie.
DAMN HAPPY !
& LOOKING FORWARD TO IT !

piinqx =]

SIANX !

2008-11-23T23:34:00.002+08:00

another day of working .
looks like i am either working or gg for red cross .
nothing else better to do .

anyways ,
KFC is selling breakfast too .
really feel like trying .
but no one pei me go .

AND ,
i wanna go escape !
saw my sister's gg escape de photos .
really feel like gg .
mayb next tym go with YUNXINmei they all ba .

SORRY TINGZHI & DESMOND !
tmr cannot go print e board all this with u 2 .
( peer tutoring thingy ) .
cos got work from 2P.M to 10P.M .
:X

nothing special happens today .
so end my post here .
:X

yupiinqx .
:X

TIRING DAY !

2008-11-22T20:32:00.002+08:00

wake up at 8 for work .
woke up late ,
so did not eat before going to work .
was hungry during work .

today is like so busy .
alot of customers .
because of that ,
i scalded my hand when making tea :X
but did not have time to care about it ,
so continued packing e order .
went to take a hashbrown .
my hand is even more pain because of e heat .

after that ,
not that busy le .
so put ice on my hand awhile .
was feeling better after that .
=]

after work ,
pei mingee to buy her things .
& went home after that .

was damn tired today !

posted by piingx :X

WORKING NIGHT SHIFT !

2008-11-22T19:32:00.004+08:00

FRIDAY - 21st november 2008

wake up early in e morning .
at about 8 .

went for redcross .
quite alot of people did not come .
claudia was sick .
zhenkhan , zhiling & siti did not come also .
so logesh take over .

boon sen sms me during my break time ,
asking me to confirm whether do i want to work at night .
i do not want to trouble him ,
so just told him that i can work from 5P.M to 10P.m .

after redcross ,
straight go home & prepare for work .
at night was damn busy de .
many people eating at mac .
hahas .

everyone was surprised that i work night shift .
really very long never work night shift le .
it was quite fun .

only get to eat after work .
was damn hungry ,
hungry until i waited for 1 hour den eat my mcchicken burger .
went home at 12 plus .
& slept at 2 plus .
cos next day still have to work .

posted by piingx =]

MISS MY FRENS !

2008-11-21T00:10:00.002+08:00

SOOOOOOO MISS YUNXIN !
& XUANRU !
& many other frens !

hahas .
it is like i FIFTEENdays never see yunxin ler .
last thursday yunxin, xuanru, charissa & kaichin went out tgt .
but i that day not free ,
so was not able to go .
:X

i SEVENdays never see xuanru ler .
hahas .
ONEweek ler .

hope can find one day all of us free ,
then go out tgt .
:D

posted by piingx.
;)

LATER AT 9:00A.M GOT RED CROSS !

2008-11-21T00:03:00.003+08:00

it's over 12:00 ler .
another new day !
& 1 day passed !

1 week don't have red cross ler .
later at 9:00 a.m got red cross .
am feeling abit sianx .
abit don't feel like going .

i will try my best to have more feeling towards redcross de.
mayb is because last few trainings abit sianx .
that's why don't quite feel like going .
hope that later de training would be better .
& fun :D

posted by piingx
:D

WORK !

2008-11-18T21:11:00.003+08:00

was late for work today !
woke up at 7 plus den went to sleep again .
e stupid thing that i do is
i even switch off e alarm .
that's why woke up at 8 plus .
so did not have time to eat ,
& was late for 15 mins .
:X

was damn hungry during work .
:X
hahas .
ate hotcakes today !
quite long never eat breakfast le .
:D

after work ,
went to mccafe to play .
chiew yan was there ,
so we stayed awhile longer .

LEARNED HOW TO MAKE DOUBLE CHOCOLATE !

it was fun :D
many people buy double chocolate .
it must be nice .
i drank it once before only .
hahas .
no money ,
so no choice ,
cannot buy .
hahas .

tmr still have to work .
going to chiong le .
must earn more money ,
so that next year can focus on studies .

still considering whether want work on friday night ma.
cos got red cross until 3 .
saturday also have to work .
see first ba .
should be working .
hahas =]

overall ,
today was quite fun .

posted by piingx .
:D

BUSY HOLIDAY !

2008-11-16T19:22:00.003+08:00

work up early in e morning at 6:30 a.m .
went to work .
ate bread & was damn hungry during work .
work as sharon's runner !
it was quite fun .
nothing special happen .

after work ,
got red house meeting .
boon sen said that there will be
3 new products after 15 dec .
& we would be damn busy .

boon sen ask ting & me to pass him our holiday's schedule .
sort it out after meeting .
sort for very very long ,
i can only work for 11 days during dec .
it is like so little .
actually wanted to find another job
cos dun wanna work after holidays .
NID TO FOCUS FOR STUDY !
but can't find any job .
so no choice ,
have to work in mac .

still thinking whether after holidays want work ma .
haix .
lisan confirm dun let us quit de !

will be really busy during dec !
11 days of working .
8 days of red cross .
4 days celebrating people's birthday .
left with a few days for resting !

now still abit sick sia .
abit fever & sneezing .
still having headache ,
as serious as yesterday .
haix :X
hope that me condition will be better tomorrow .

posted by piingx
:D

HEADACHE !

2008-11-15T23:40:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY - 15 november 2008

still having headache in e morning !
but feeling better le .

went to work !
was late by 1 minute.
hahas.

nothing special happen during work .
jus that i ate e new ice cream .
it is dame nice !
must go and try worr.
hahas .

after work ,
went home to sleep .
was feeling tired this few days .
this week everyday so busy .
got peer tutoring project ,
red cross training
& work .

wednesday ,
was quite unhappy
because of 1 thing !
now ,
not that unhappy ler .
but still abit .
:X

posted by piingx
=]

SICK !

2008-11-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY - 14 november 2008

after red cross training,
it rains.

zhi ling, claudia, logesh and i walked in e rain to bus stop.
i walked with them
because i am helping zhi ling.
i went with zhi ling and claudia
to anderson primary school
to take zhi ling's item for her work.

saw dason and xuanru there.
hahas.
chat with dason awhile
& left.

zhi ling & i take the itme to her house.
i accidently injuired my hand abit.
hahas.

after that,
went home.
was a bit sick at night.
got headache, fever & sneezing.
mayb is because i walk in e rain ba
& did not bath right after i reach home.
somemore i on e fan cos it's too hot :X
hahas.

posted by piingx
;D

TIRING TRAINING :X

2008-11-15T23:13:00.004+08:00

YESTERDAY - 14 november 2008

friday - red cross training.
it is the 3rd training this week.
today's training is tiring and tough.
we were marching on e spot for more than 5 mins.
and e timing giving is from e VIs.
their timing are like so fast.
joe sir said that it is a pt.
this is worse than pt lurs.
he said that if we did badly next time.
he will give us ' pt ' again.

they cut short our break tome by 10mins ( 12:10 )
& they expect us to be back by 01:00
in full U.
we rush to cbm to eat then rush back.
i eat damn fast de.
hahas.

after break,
we continued with footdrill.
suppose to have accred de.
but they say we are not prepared for our accred.
so it was postpone to duno when.
a mdm and a sir come down for nothing.
e mdm is very nice.
she is patience in teaching us.
=]

i tie my hair for nothing.
it is the first time i tie my hair and go out
after i cut my hair.

posted by piingx
:X

A BUSY HOLIDAY !

2008-11-11T00:05:00.002+08:00

TUESDAY - 11 november 2008

holiday had started at about 2 weeks ago.
very busy during holiday.
got alot of red cross training
& peer tutoring project
& bridging programme
& have to work
& e most impt is really have to ctach up wif school work

for e past 2 weeks,
de whole of monday to friday have to go to school.
then sunday have to work.
oni saturday can rest.

when i first noe that there r 15 red cross training,
i think that that's alot.
i think that zhen khan r crazy.
hahas.
but after what peng sian had said.
i am damn angry
& had decided to put all my heart in red cross.
i wan to make red cross a proud cca to be in.
i am now not unhappy that there r so many training.
i think that wat zhen khan is doing is correct.
i have e same wish as him now.
i don't mind spending my time for red cross.

posted by piingx ;D

BECAME HAPPIER

2008-11-10T23:52:00.004+08:00

MONDAY - 10 movember 2008

very long never post ler.
last few months,
really have no mood in doing everythings.
but now,
i had learn to think in a more positive way.
and i realised that i had became happier.
hope that this can maintain.
hahas.

btw,
went to bugis bought a t-shirt a few week ago.
got a word " EMO " on e shirt.
i like that shirt because of e design.
not e word.
hahas

it's so funny,
oni after i bought e shirt,
i then became happier.
and learn to become happier.
of coure not because i bought that shirt then become happier de.
hahas.
but will still wear that shirt de.
although got " EMO "

AND
i had let this blog to be able to viewed by all people !
mayb is because i had learned how to share ? ( learn from peer tutoring game )
tingzhi had created " learn to share, pay each player $2 =) "
hahas

posted by piingx

"BIRTHDAY" DAY

2008-11-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

MONDAY - 10 november 2008

today alot people birthday !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HADI (red cross junior) !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON (red cross junior) !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEW HWI (townsville fren) !

hope that all of ur wishes will come true !
most important is to always be happy and must smile =)

fr piingx ;D

YUPING IS NOT BORN TO BE HAPPY ?

2008-08-17T00:16:00.003+08:00

sunday -X 17 August 2008

read kailing junior's blog just now.
saw her post about friday's training.
she says that the cadets are not responding
when the I/C or sir are asking a question.
and they are not 100% "tou ru" during training.

i am thinking that the sir and ma'am or the I/C
everytime says that the cadets are not responding to them.
but did they know why??
maybe they are too tired?
they are sick?

the I/C themselves are not always in the good mood too.
they won't always be hyper too.
they in what positions,
can say that the cadets are not always hyper.
only when you are always hyper.
then you have the rights to say others.
if not,
correct yourselves first !

WHENEVER I HAD STARTED TO LIKE RED CROSS MORE.
THINGS WOULD HAPPEN.
THAT MAKE ME NOT LIKE RED CROSS A BIT.
OR MORE.

i seriously don't know why?
really.
it is the same like,

WHENEVER I AM A BIT HAPPY.
THINGS WILL HAPPEN.
THAT MAKE ME FEEL UNHAPPY AND SAD.

WHENEVER I HAD STATED TO LIKE WORKING IN MAC.
AND ENJOY WORKING IN MAC.
THINGS WILL HAPPEN.
THAT MAKE ME NOT LIKE.

AM I BORN NOT TO BE HAPPY FOR LONG?
MY LIFE CAN ONLY BE SAD AND UNHAPPY?
AND FULL OR TIREDNESS?

I HATE LIVING IN THIS WORLD !
I HATE TO BE A HUMAN !

posted by piingx.

MEANINGFUL PHRASE !

2008-08-15T00:08:00.002+08:00

here are some of the phrase that i find it meaningful.

1.
ARE PROMISES MEANT TO BE BROKEN??
hope it's not.

2.
BY SAYING IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH,
SHOW IT BY ACTIONS
always thinking of wanting to study,
hope that i can show it by actions too.
but i know it is difficult.

3.
WHAT YOU SAY,
IS NOT WHAT YOU MEAN.
when you say you don't care.
it is not true.
don't bluff yourself by telling yourself that you don't care.
actually, you really do care.

4.
ARE FRIENDSHIP REALLY THAT FRAGILE?
JIN BU QI KAO YAN?
friends are always quarreling.
friends are always leaving out friend.
friends are saying bad things about friend.
DOES ARE THIS REALLY CALL FRIENDSHIP?

5.
WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR?
friends are someone that :
SHARE your sorrow with you,
SHARE your happiness and unhappiness,
LISTEN to your troubles,
COMFORT you when you are sad,
CARE about you when you are feeling emo or sick,
HELP you when you are feeling helpless.
& a lot a lot more.
TREASURE FRIENDSHIP !

6.
SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT.
IS IT CORRECT?
we spent most of the time with friends in this period.
this is the time when all of us are still innocent.
do not have any scheme.
do not have the ideas of wanting to hurt someone.
do not have the ideas of wanting to harm someone.
the only thing that you want to do is MAKE FRIENDS.

6.
ACTUALLY,
SCHOOL LIFE IS GREAT !
although sometimes,
there are really a lot of projects,homeworks and tests!
& we have stress.
but this is the period of time that are MOST HAPPY !
& ENJOYABLE !
most of the time, it is fun when there are FRIENDS around.
FRIENDS ARE ALWAYS THERE.
TO HELP YOU AND COMFORT YOU !

posted by piingx. =P

" TESTS " DAY !

2008-08-14T23:24:00.003+08:00

thursday -X 14 August 2008

today,
got lots of test.
physics SPA test, chemistry test and E maths journal.

physics SPA test
think i did quite well.
i think my answer is the same as mitra's.
so think should be correct.
at first,
i thought that plotting of graph is x against y.
so i plotted the graph.
& i find the gradient.
after finding the gradient,
i realise that it should be y against x.
so i erase the whole thing.
& plot again.
luckily,
i am in time to finish the graph.
but i did not do some of the questions.

chemistry test
i did quite badly for chemistry.
the test did not come out with teh things that i memorise.
it came out with things that i am unsure of.
& things that i just READ THROUGH.
so i think i did badly for chemistry.

E maths journal
i had finished the question in time.
& i think that i had all of the points needed.
so i may have a chance of doing it well.

today,
is really a relax day.
HAVE NO HOMEWORKS.
went to hougang with xuanru after school.
then went to hougang mall,
ting joined us after that.
went KFC.
3 of us ate the same thing !
hahas
=P

after that,
went home.

posted by piingx. =P

one of the promises to xuanru

2008-08-13T20:23:00.002+08:00

6.

WE WOULD NOT HAVE ANY SECRET IN ANYONE OF US.

ALWAYS BE FRANK WITH ONE ANOTHER.

this is 1 of the promises i promise you.

wednesday - X 13 August 2008

was quite hyper before recess.

but after recess,

was very boring,

especially E maths.

after school.

went for peer tutoring.

really do not know how to teach,

when xuanru is not there.

i am not the type that can teach people.

after peer tutoring,

went to study with charissa & xuanru.

only charissa & xuanru study.

i did not.

because i really have no mood to study.

i do not know why also.

when studying,

i saw a lorry.

because of the lorry,

i thought of AH PA !

& i almost cried out.

but i try not to,

because charissa do not know anything about AH PA.

so i cannot cry !

at last, i did not cry.

hahas

after that,

xuanru walk home with me.

to the shelter there.
he went home after that ba.
then, i went to block 476 sit awhile & go home.

posted by piingx =P

PROMISES TO OUR FRIENDSHIP !

2008-08-10T22:04:00.003+08:00

PROMISES TO OUR FRIENDSHIP !

XUAN RU.

LET US MAKE A PROMISE. OKAY?

PROMISE THAT :

1.
WE WOULD NOT LET ANYTHING AFFECT OUR FRIENDSHIP.
I HAD ALREADY LOST SOMEONE VERY IMPORTANT.
I DO NOT WANT TO LOST YOU .

2.
WE WOULD LET OUR FRIENDSHIP LAST FOREVER.
FRIENDSHIP THAT WILL NEVER BREAK.

3.
WE WOULD BE FRANK WITH ONE ANOTHER.
IF ANYONE OF US IS UNHAPPY WITH THE OTHER ONE,
THEN PLEASE TELL THE OTHER ONE.
IF ANYONE OF US IS FEELING UNHAPPY OR SAD,
PLEASE TELL THE OTHER ONE
& SHARE WITH THE OTHER ONE.

4.
IF ANYONE OF US IS FEELING UNWELL.
PLEASE TELL THE OTHER ONE,
SO THAT THE OTHER ONE WILL KNOW.
SO THAT IF ANYTHING HAPPENS,
THE OTHER ONE CAN HELP.

5.
IF ANYONE OF US DOES NOT CONCENTRATE ON STUDYING.
OR KEPT PLAYING.
OR NOT FOCUSING IN CLASS.
OR NOT LISTENING IN CLASS.
THE OTHER ONE PLEASE CONVINCES HIM/HER.

6.
WE WOULD NOT HAVE ANY SECRET IN ANYONE OF US.
ALWAYS BE FRANK WITH ONE ANOTHER.

7.
WE DO NOT KNOW WHEN WE WILL DIE,
WE DO NOT KNOW WHEN ANYTHING WILL HAPPEN TO US.
SO PLEASE LET'S MAKE EVERY MOMENT COUNT.

8.
PEOPLE WILL DIE ONE DAY,
SO WHEN ANYONE OF US DIE EARLIER THAN THE OTHER ONE,
PLEASE DON'T BE SAD.
ALWAYS BE HAPPY.
I BELIEVE THAT NO ONE THAT DIE WILL WANT THE LIVING ONE TO ALWAYS BE
SAD & ALWAYS CRY.
THEY WOULD WANT THE LIVING ONE TO BE ALWAYS HAPPY !

PLEASE PLAEASE PLAEASE PROMISE ME ALL OF THE ABOVE PROMISES ! !

POSTED BY PIINGX.

SORRY XUAN RU !

2008-08-10T21:08:00.002+08:00

TO XUAN RU :

DON'T THINK TOO MUCH.
it is not because of YOU,
that makes your close friends to be UNHAPPY.

SORRY !
it must be because,
that day in yunxin house,
i say in the past,
i am MUCH MORE HAPPY THEN NOW.

but it is not because of you.
REALLY.
you should know why.
you should know what i am always thinking about,
that will definitely make me UNHAPPY.
of course,
recently, really many things had happened,
that is why i am so UNHAPPY.
it is REALLY NOT BECAUSE OF YOU!

last time u say i selfish,
YOU ALSO !
if you really die,
many many many people will be SAD !

REALLY REALLY !
YOU MUST TAKE CARE !
YOU BETTER DON'T LET ANYTHING HAPPEN TO YOU !
REALLY !
THINK OF YOUR HEALTHE
BEFOFE YOU THINKS OF OTHER PEOPLE.
YOU ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYTHING ELSE.

posted by piingx

IF I DO NOT KNOW CHARISSA AND KAI CHIN? WOULD IT BE GOOD OR BAD ?

2008-08-06T00:03:00.003+08:00

tuesday -X 05 August 2008

today,
yunxin and kai chin quarrel AGAIN !
over the english story thing.
everytime like that one.
so,
yunxin did not wan to recess with charissa they all.
& she come to find me =P

since i have no mood to study for SS.
i accompany her.
we chat..
hahas.
=P

chat about certain things.
SECRET =X
kidding..

we decided to study together
when both of us are free.
but it is very seldom
that both of us will be free on the same day.
this whole week CANNOT !
so need to see whether next week can anot.
i hope CAN !

yunxin and i think that
we are like going back to secondary 1& 2.
she will SLACK.
& i will go home and sleep in the afternoon.
then, do homeworks at night.

i think i may have improved but not for yunxin.
hahas
becasue,
at least i am able to hand in my homeworks on time.
but for yunxin,
she is SLACKING !
just like in sec 1 & 2.

i think that both of us is the same.
we told each other
to encourage each other to study.
and work hard.
hahas.
hopes that it really works.

how i wish that we are really in EARLY SEC 2!
that we are close,
i do not know charissa and kai chin.
so that i would not be that SLACK NOW !
so that yunxin may not be in the same class as them.
so that yunxin and i will be in the same class.
we can do projects together.
at least, we have one another to help out.
we would not be alone.

BUT,
if times really GOES BACK.
and everythings change.
i do not know charissa and kai chin.
would that really be a GOOD ENDING??
it may or may not be.
I HAD LEARNED TO THNK OF A POSITIVE SIDE TOO.
the fact is that,
we cannot go back to the past.
but i cannot COPE WITH THE PRESENT..
& i will HAVE NO FUTURE !

hahas
=P

LASTLY,
I HOPE THAT XUAN RU AND I WILL STILL BE FRIENDS !
=P

posted by piingx.

HAD NOT BEEN TALKING TO XUAN RU FOR TWO DAYS !

2008-08-05T23:54:00.004+08:00

tuesday -X 05 August 2008

had not been talking to xuan ru for 2 days.
not even a single word in class.
or it can also be said everywhere.

i do not know why this happens.

today,
i had been thinking about it.
i still do not know the reason.

i had thought that,
maybe it is because on monday,
he did not talk to me,
& i did not talk to him.
both of us think that
we do not want to talk to one another.
that is why we did not even talk a single word.

no one had realised about that.
hahas.

posted by piingx.

LOW EQ !

2008-08-04T01:03:00.003+08:00

whenever i am feeling happy,
or even a bit happy.
things will then happen.
those things will then make me unhappy..
or even SAD..

WHY ??
WHY ??
WHY ??

is it that god do not want me to me happy ?
i am not born to be happy ?
only the word "sad" can be used to describe me ?

don't know from how long ago,
maybe since AH PA die,
or even earlier,
or maybe later..
i had not experience those really HAPPY times..
i had not been HAPPY for a long period of time..

things that will make me laugh for a while,
will not make me smile or laugh forever..

how i wish i can MIA !!
maybe for awhile.
or forever..

IS THAT POSSIBLE ??

really.
really.
sometimes,
actually quite a lot of times already,
i feel like not going to school,
not picking up any calls,
not going home,
not meeting anyone that i know,
& hide in a place that no one know me.

if not for mama,
i will really do that.
REALLY. REALLY.
i do not want her to be worry about me.

posted by piingx.
HAVING EXTREMELY LOW EQ !

UNHAPPY DAY !

2008-08-03T21:35:00.002+08:00

sunday -X 03 August 2008

woke up at 7 plus.
late for work already.
so decided not going to work.
bluff boon sen that i am sick.
& he down crew.
SORRY !
=X

since i did not work,
therefore i decided to met up with yunxin her group
& go to singapore museum together.
reach hub at about 11:20 a.m.
i am the earliest !
went hub walk awhile
& saw charissa and cherie.

they went to mac to find kai chin.
i went to mrt station to find yunxin.
peng sian & chin yang join us after that.
After xuan ru's tuition,
he choing to come find us.
because of this,
he never bring psp and ear piece.

after he reach,
charissa they all still haven't reach.
we waited for them for about 10 minutes.
xuan ru say i cause him to forgot to bring so many things.
hahas
SORRY !!
but that's good,
cause he have nothing to play with!
hahas
=X

took mrt to dhoby ghaut.
xuan ru and i waited for stella.
yunxin her group go first.
they took bus and realised that walking to the museum would be faster.
we were faster than them.

walked half way,
went back and look for yunxin they all.
charissa they all were like showing attitude larh.
& damn ANGRY !
yunxin cried !

went looking for the museum after that.
walk around & around.
then found the museum.
charissa they all were even more
UNHAPPY & COMPLAINING !

ON THE WAY TO THE MUSEUM,
I DON'T CARE ABOUT THEM !
YUNXIN, XUAN RU , STELLA & I
WALK AT THE FRONT & THEY FOLLOW.

after going to the museum,
went to eat.
& went back to dhoby ghaut mrt station.
yunxin, xuanru, stella and i
went to 7 - eleven.
they did not see us going in.
therefore they went to the mrt station.
after that,
we saw them.
& ALL OF THEM WERE SHOWING ATTITUDE !
& THEY WERE DAMN ANGRY !

OUR FAULT LARH ???
WE WAIT FOR THEM SO LONG CAN.
THEY WAIT FOR US FOR AWHILE CANNOT ??
YA,
CORRECT !
WE SHOULD WAIT FOR THEM !
NOT THEY WAIT FOR US !!!

i was like damn angry la.

went home after that.
ah ma came to our house,
and watch tv.
so did not do homework.
later going to do..

posted by piingx.

TIRING DAY !

2008-08-03T21:25:00.002+08:00

saturday -X 02 August 2008

woke up at 8:30 a.m
for red cross youth recognition 2008 thing.
met up with yan bing
at sengkang mrt station to go to compassvale sec together.
yumni and her friends saw us,
so we went together.

compassvale sec were easy to find !
because they lead the way.
hahas.

the whole thing end very fast.
end at about 3 plus.
though would end at 4 plus.

went to compass point with yumni & her friend,
clive & his friend to KFC to eat.
we separated after that.
i went walk walk awhile in compass point.
looking for birthday gift for zhi ling and charissa.

actually found a gift for charissa,
but sms yunxin and she say she want to buy the gift together.
so did not buy that.
had not found anything for zhi ling either.
hahas.

very tired after taht,
went home and sleep.
slept at 7 plus p.m.
& woke up at 7 plus a.m.
=X

posted by piingx.

VERY VERY VERY FUN TODAY !

2008-08-01T22:38:00.004+08:00

friday -X 01 August 2008

today,
got P.E,
i got partcipate.
hahas.
=P
played captain ball.
same group with dog,eshley they all.
very fun =P

Eshley very cute.
hahas
kept calling what fish cake fish cake de.
he is the second person calling me that!

first is liping!
best friend in townsville !
it si like so weird when eshley start calling me fish cake.
because,
should be those that very close 1 then will know,
i got 1 wierd nickname call fish cake de.
just like li ping !
hahas
but i think she also forgotten ler.
not that close ler.
=X

recess,
stay in class with yunxin and xuan ru !
chat and eat !
hahas.

after recess,
is ENGLSH !
really like ms sasi teaching us english.
her lesson is like so so FUN !
went to growth room.
watched PEARL HARBOUR !
but only disc 1.
very very nice !

after school,
yunxin wait for me in her class !
sorry worr yunxin,
make you wait for me so long !
then we went cateen eat together with xuan ru too.
chat and eat !

recently,
yunxin kana left out !
because of cherie !
xuan ru, yunixn and i don't like her !
hahas

if she is celebrating charissa birthday with us.
den we 3 not going ler.
=X

went for CIP- newspaper collection.
quite fun also !
same group as xuan ru, desmond, ting zhi and zhen khan !
same group as them is fun !
if got chance,
next time project same group also not bad.
ALL WILL DO WORK DE !

zhen khan and ting zhi scared of DOGS !
zhen khan alone,
is in the middle of 2 flats,
and both flats have DOG barking.
scary !!
he damn scared !
den sms desmond for help !
ANYWAY,
CIP DAMN FUN !

actually,
wanted to go xuan ru's house to study,
but..
zhen khan called me.
say got red cross things.

went back to school.
discussed about red cross T-shirt design.

after that,
went to red cross room with zhen khan.
chat chat and chat.
talk about red cross things and people !
hahas
den zhen khan say don't want let logesh and sindu be the secretary.
den he want choose me.
sianx..

from now on,
SURE WILL BE DAMN STRESS DE !
AND BUSY !

think being a secretary would be quite fun ba..
hahas
try first..
zhen khan say if cannot cope,
will call 1 more people help me de.
thanks !!

went home after that.
hahas.

tomorrow got red cross recognition thing.
DAMN SIAN DE..
need wear uniform.
need go until compassvale sec.
end at about 4 or 5p.m
DAMN TIRED !

sunday still need very early wake up.
go work.
den go museum.
actually,
don't want work de.
felicia and boon sen don't allowed.
but at least felicia help to change from 8 to 12.

yunxin's group also going museum on sunday.
she call me meet earler den go together.
but i cannot.
SORRY WORR YUNXIN !

posted by piingx.

TRAINING REALLY FUN !

2008-08-01T22:28:00.003+08:00

Thursday -X 31 July 2008

got red cross training =X
we only have 10 mins to eat and to change!
so i decided not to eat.
had not eaten since morning!
den HUNGRY !
lucky,
i did not faint or what.

training quite fun.
first,
we clean up red cross room.

second,
there's a training because of the national day thing.
I AM THE I/C.
i don't want !
hand is like so suan la.
need to salute.
then got a small rehearsal.
i did wrongly =X
sorry zhen khan !
i did not remember the whole thing!

lastly,
we learn some cheers.
the goreng pisang cheer &
1 more claudia teach de cheer.
the cheer very very nice.
run about 2 rounds around the school.
cheering at the same time !

TRAINING REALLY FUN !

posted by piingx =P

INSTRUCTIONS FOR LIFE =X

2008-07-28T23:50:00.005+08:00

INSTRUCTIONS FOR LIFE X=

X= take into account that great love & great achievements involve great risk.

X= when you lose, don't lose the lesson.

X= follow the three R's
- respect for self
- respect for others &
- responsibility for all your actions

X= remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

X= learn the rules so that you know how to break them properly.

X= don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

X= when you realise you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

X= spend some time alone every day.

X= open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

X= remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

X= live a good, honourable life. then when you get older & think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

X= a loving atmosphere in your house is the foundation for your life.

X= in disagreements with loved ones, deal with only the current situation. don't bring up the past.

X= share your knowledge. it is a way to achieve immortality.

X= be gently with the world.

X= once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

X= remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

X= judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

X= approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

this is what my friend had send me !
i think that "don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship"
is what i need to understand the most NOW !
will try to not let a little dispute injure a great relationship - FRIENDSHIP !

by the way,
mr wong show us a short show during A maths.
it is about "the last lecture"
i remebered something.
it is "treasure one another"
i will treasure my friends and famile members !

& when mr wong is talking about don't know what thing,
suddenly i think of AH PA.
and i cried a bit.
lucky,i think no one realise.
will try not to think of AH PA during lesson.
hahas
=P

there are other meaningful pharse too.
but i did not copy it down.

posted by piingx.

SLACKING AGAIN !

2008-07-28T23:40:00.003+08:00

today,
nothing much actually.
SLACKING AGAIN !
damn boring during lessons.
slept during geography lesson =X
mr chan is damn good.
he don't catch us for sleeping.
hahas.

did not listen during bala's lesson also.
it was so so boring lurh.

after school,
stay in class until about 3:15 p.m.
den went library borrow books.
& went home sleep =P

by the way,
SORRY WORR DOGG.
today a bit or maybe a lot show attitude to you !
because i am thinking of something.
& trying to solve it.
so before i come up with a better solution,
maybe,
i won't be that close to you.
see how first =X

& don't sleep during lesson !
don't think i don't know you sleep during lesson.
although i won't get too close to you recently.
but i will try to ask jun kang wake you up !

STAY FOCUS AND STUDY !

posted by piingx.

DO'N' T KNOW HOW?

2008-07-28T00:21:00.003+08:00

i don't know whether i should go or not.
i rather learn form the pro den them la.

but i scared later too stress.
too many homeworks.
too many projects.
still need care this care that.
do this do that.

everytime say don't care about red cross.
but in the end,
still care.
dont know why..

really don't know whether should go or not... =X

posted by piingx.

DON'T WANT TO STUDY !

2008-07-24T02:35:00.002+08:00

BALA LESSON IS REALLY BORING !
i everytime feel sleepy during his lesson.
so i decided to read book instead.

RECENTLY,
I REALLY HATE STUDYING !
i don't know why..
i think is because every lesson is BORING !
i just simply hate almost every subject.
such as A math (don't understand anything !),
E math(bala lesson is boring & sometimes don't understand),
chemistry(lesson is boring too,don't understand ),
social studies (don't like mdm how),
geography(don't understand)

the subject that i find it OKAY !
physics (i like ms ho to teach me),
chinese(it is quite fun),
english(ms sasi is very good).

it is like i hate so many subjects and liek so little subjects.
MAINLY IS BECAUSE I HAVE NO MOOD TO STUDY,
I DON'T FEEL LIKE STUDYING.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE TEACHING(so might as well don't listen)/

posted by piingx.

WENT TO YUNXIN HOUSE !

2008-07-24T02:26:00.002+08:00

wednesday - X 23 July 2008

went to yunxin house today.
with dog.
xuan and zhen never go,
cos they got tuition.

actually,
we wanted to study.
but we ended up chatting

we study for awhile den we start chatting.
we chatted about quite a lot of things.
mostly on sec 1 and 2 things.

very long never chat with yunxin already.
everytime,
she after school straight go home.
so did not have a chance to chat together.
or sometimes is because xuan and zhen is there.
if we chat about out 1e2 or 2e2.
then they will have nothing to do.
and look so boring.
like that we won't have the mood to carry on chatting.

today,
xuan and zhen is not there.
we can chat about anything.
i haf fun today.

i had also found out that..
i can focus when with yunxin.
although today we did not study much.
but i still think that i can study with her.

my distance with yunxin is nearer and nearer.
but my distance with xuan and zhen is further and further.
so is that good or bad??
i also not sure..

posted by piingx.

DON'T THINK TOO MUCH AND BE HAPPY !

2008-07-22T23:40:00.003+08:00

XUAN RU,

why do you have to do thing that will make you feel sad and unhappy.
why do you want to ask xuan that question?
maybe before she reply,
you had already know the answer.
or maybe not.
her reply can make you feel either happy or sad.
it is all depends on you to whether you want to be happy or sad.
or you just don't ask that question.
and you would be the state that you are in before you ask that question.
it can be happy or sad.
or just normal.

since you had decided to ask her that question.
then,
you should be prepared to feel either sad or happy.
so think so much about her answer.

DON'T THINK TOO MUCH !
AND BE HAPPY !
KAES??
PROMISE??

posted by piingx =P

I WILL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF !

2008-07-22T00:11:00.003+08:00

i don't want my mother to be sad,
that is why i had always thought that...
why my mother die,
den i will not care.
will not care about myself..
will not care about anythings.

NOW,
i actually did not purposely want to hurt myself..
i did not purposely want to fall sick..
because i know,
my mother will be worry about me.
at least,
when i know it is raining,
sometimes i will not try to walk in the rain.
sometimes,
i will also try to eat regularly.

i will take care of myself when needed.
at least when my mother is still alive.
if she's not,
there's no need to.
i see no purpose in doing that.

i believe that by that time,
i would have probably lost contact with secondary school friends.
or maybe not as close with them.

when i die,
i do not want anyone to know about that.
not even my friends,
or relatives.

posted by piingx.

GOOD PEOPLE ARE THE ONE SUFFERING! IT'S UNFAIR !

2008-07-20T19:08:00.003+08:00

yesterday,
i found out from my mother that my uncle is in the hospital.
i am thinking that WHY ???
WHY GOOD PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS THE ONE SUFFERING??
AND THE BAD ARE ALWAYS ENJOYING ??
WHY??

UNCLE is so good,
he help us when we need help.
and he suffered from minore heart problem.

MAMA is so good,
and SHE last time have HEART PROBLEM.
and she suffered a lot !

AH PA is so good,
and HE died of cancer.
he suffered a lot before he die.
he look very TONG KU before he die !

WHY WHY WHY??
I RATHER I DIE !
OR I SUFFER !
AND NOT ALL THE OTHER THAT ARE GOOD !
AND TO MAKE MAMA NOT TO GO THROUGH THE SUFFERING !
AND TO BE ABLE TO LET AH PA COME ALIVE !

IT IS REALLY UNFAIR !
i know that everything are unfair.
but i just don't want to see this unfair-ness !

BY THE WAY,
I REMEMBERED THAT AH PA BIRTHDAY IS ON LUNAR 9 OF JULY.
WHICH IS 9 OF AUGUST.
THAT WILL BE 20 DAYS MORE!
COUNT DOWN TO THAT DAY !
THINK WILL BE DAMN EMO ON THAT DAY!

posted by piingx =P

DON'T WANT TO IMPROVED !

2008-07-20T18:48:00.003+08:00

saturday -X 19 July 2008

went to find boon sen at night,
to go through food hygiene thing.
when going to finish going through,
li san called boon sen and tell him that our food hygiene thing will be post-poned to next sunday.
but we still continue going through.

after that,
we went to KFC to eat.
when we finish eating,
it is about 10p.m.
i do not want to go home so early so we walk here walk there.
we walk until dog house downstairs.

remembered LAST TIME
when we are still small.
AH PA always bring us to the playground to play,
and to cycle.
NOW,
we no longer can do that anymore.
i would not be that happy anymore.

THE HAPPIEST TIME THAT I EVER HAD,
IS WHEN I AM STILL SMALL.
WHEN AH PA IS STILL ALIVE.
WHEN ALL OF US WENT OUT TOGETHER TO PLAY.
AND TO EAT.

I WOULD NOT BE LIKE BEFORE.
THAT HAPPYY.
EVEN SOMETIME WHEN I LOOK HAPPY.
OR VERY VERY HAPPY.
I WON'T BE AS HAPPY AS LAST TIME !

at least,
i improved,
i am not that sad anymore.
i did not cry yesterday when i think of AH PA.

actually,
i do not want to improve.
i want to always think of AH PA
i want to always remember AH PA.
he will always be in my HEART !
I DON'T WANT TO IMPROVED !

posted by piingx =P

TO XUAN RU

2008-07-20T18:45:00.002+08:00

LI XUAN RU,

U EVERYTIME SAY I THINK TOO MUCH.

YOU ALSO !

posted by piingx =P

TAKE CARE !

2008-07-17T22:49:00.001+08:00

xuan ru !
must take care.
i don't want you to die earlier than me.
or to had something serious happening to me.
u are really very very weak!
i don't want to be unhappy again.
because of someone close to me had die.
or something had happened to them.
I REALLY DON'T WANT!
or i will take a even longer time to become happy.

I REALLY DO NOT WANT ANY TYPE OF THIS HAPPENING AGAIN.
ONCE IS ENOUGH.
IF ONE MORE,
I WILL BE HARD TO BECOME HAPPY !
I WILL TAKE A LONG TIME TO HEAL MY WOUNDS!

posted by piingx

STUPID !

2008-07-17T22:24:00.002+08:00

i am really very stupid.
i seems to believe in people a lot!
i will believe in whatever they say!
am i really that stupid until like that??
why am i so stupid?

does they know that when they bluff me,
i will be hurt?
although it is not that serious,
but seriously,
i hate people to bluff me!
really HATE !
why do they have to bluff me?

whenever i know that some people had bluff me,
i will be really very sad.
i am like so easy to be bluff and cheated.
so they bluff again and again.
and i ALWAYS believe.
because i believe,
they KEPT bluffing.
this had make me think that i am someone that is being used to help them but i suffered.

such as,
whenever boon sen had called me to work.
at first,
i would say NO NO NO.
but in the end,
i still say YES.
because he will say REALLY down crew or wat.
but on the day i work.
there are like so many CREW !

and zhen khan!
he call me go stupid unit leader course hting.
at first,
i also say NO NO NO.
but in the end,
i still say YES.
because he say there are no one else to choose from.
but actually there are.
it is only that he don't want.
and i suffered!

lastly is xuan ru!
he everytime everytime bluff me!!
and i everytime believe!
the first few times when i know le bluff me,
i kept telling myself that i would not be bluff by him again.
i would not believe in what he say.
but, i still can't do this.
i do not know why.
and whenever know that he bluff me!
i am not angry!
but ithink that i am stupid.
and somehow will feel a bit sad.

REALLY HATE TO BE BLUFFED!
posted by piingx.

2008-07-16T19:16:00.003+08:00

PIINGX IS DOING TWO SECRET TASK !

i had thought it through le.
and had found the answer.
but i am not confident in my own answer.
actually i do not want this answer.
but i have no choice.
other than doing this,
i think there are no better way le.
although this way is not that good also.TO ME !
but to the others,
think and HOPE that this way will benefit them.

posted by piingx.

10 PROMISES TO MY DOG !

2008-07-11T00:01:00.003+08:00

thursday -X 10 July 2008

10 PROMISES TO MY DOG !

1. Listen patiently to what I say.
2. Trust me, for I am always by your side.
3. Play with me a lot.
4. Don’t forget that I have feelings too.
5. Let’s never fight.
6. If I don’t obey you, I have a good reason.
7. You have school and friends, but as for me, I only have you.
8. Stay as my best friend even when I’m old.
9. I’ll only live for ten years, so let’s make every moment count
10. I’ll never forget the life together. So when the time comes, remember I’ll always be by your side.

THE MOVIE IS VERY VERY VERY NICE !
TOUCHING !
tiings says that alomost 99.99% of people that watch this movie will cry.
but i don't think so.

to xuan ru..
i know.
u are not human.
u are DOG !
so you cry.
hahas
just kidding.

posted by piingx

HAS TO BE HAPPY !

2008-07-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

grey wording - BORING ! [ =X ]
blue wording - STUPID - NESS ! [ =X ]
green wording - UNDERSTAND - ED ! [ =P ]
yellow wording - HAPPY ! [ =P ]
purple wording - TROUBLE - ED ! [ =X ]

thursday -X 10 July 2008

bala's lesson is so so so so so BORING !
he kept teaching the same thing again and again.
although i do not understand some of the things that he teach,
but i really cannot concentrate during his lesson.
so i read story book.
hahas.

=X

i found out that although i focus and listen to what the teacher is teaching,
i still do not understand what they are teaching.
am i really that stupid?
haix.

=X

i think it through already,
i want to start studying.
and not to think so much about the past.
i want to make myself happy.
and NOT EMO !

=P

so long as i am happy,
i will be able to do well in study.
and any other things

=P

i really do not wish to go to school tomorrow.
have so many things to do tomorrow,
like got red cross( training sux. still got induction thing, need to iron uniform )
the shang hai buddies thing( troublesome sia )
geography test( don't understand anything that mr chan taught, haven't even study fot it )
i don't want to go to school tomorrow.

=X

posted by piingx

REMEMBERS AH PA

2008-07-09T23:32:00.003+08:00

green wording - remember AH PA

wednesday -X 09 July 2008

today,
did not went to watch movie with tiingx they all.
at home play computer game.
wanted to go study with xuan ru at 8p.m plus.
but 2nd sister don't allow.
stay at home watch show until 10p.m
no more food at home,
so went out to buy maggi.
saw block 476.
remember AH PA again.
so went to 476's void deck sit.
sit for quite long and then go home.
EMO after that.
really no mood to study,
think would sleep early.
don't care about anything now.

posted by piingx

WANT BUT IMPOSSIBLE !

2008-07-09T23:16:00.004+08:00

wednesday -X 09 July 2008

SOMETHING THAT I WANT TO HAVE.
BUT I KNOW THAT IT IS NOT POSSIBLE.

01. to go back to the PAST.
02. to make AH PA alive
03. to not to be so EMO.
04. to not think about the PAST.
05. to not think about AH PA.
06. to FOCUS on studying.
07. to be more HAPPY.
08. to have a BEST friend. (before P6,got liping. now have no one)
09. to study hard and earn lots of MONEY.
10. to not think about anything and die NOW.
11. to not think about anything and irresponsibly quit RED CROSS.

posted by piingx

2008-07-09T16:47:00.003+08:00

red wording - angry [ =X ]
purple wording - stress [ =/ ]

wednesday -X 09 July 2008

today,
went with zhen khan,claudia and logesh to see ms jey after red cross meeting.
logesh leave after finish discussing what he had to say.
left with claudia, zhen khan and me with ms jey.
zhen khan asked about the student leader induction thing.
ms jey say i must go because i went for ULP.
den only can choose zhen khan or claudia.
claudia cannot go so zhen khan go with me.
can see that claudia are unhappy with me la.
she is like so unhappy during the meeting ler.

=X

I AM LIKE SO SO SO ANGRY !
IT LOOK AS IF IS MY FAULT LA.
i also don't want to go.
is ms jey force me to go.
then claudia unhappy.
she want to go so much,
let her go.
i don't want to go.
go for what??
i also not the leader.
STUPID LA !
good thing never see them find me.
bad things so many for me!
IDIOT LA.
unfair lor..
i go for ULP, need to do so many things.
all the achievements belong to them.
NOT ME !
so what for i do so many things?
IT'S UNFAIR ! ! !

everytime discuss about red cross things will make me so angry and unhappy !
i really want to quit red cross.

because of this,
my whole mood had turn bad.
for the remaining few hours until next morning.
BECAUSE OF THESE STUPID RED CROSS THING.
I HATE CLAUDIA !

just now i told zhen khan that i feel like quitting red cross.
he asked why?
i do not know how to tell him the answer.
I AM REALLY TOO STRESS !
later will make him feel like i did not do much things and i am feeling so stress.
it is like he do so many things also did not look like he feel stress!
I AM SO USELESS !

HOW?? HOW?? HOW??
I NEED HELP.
SOMEONE PLEASE HELP !

posted by piingx.

WANT TO DIE !

2008-07-09T01:25:00.004+08:00

blue wording - cry when posting
purple wording - what i had written in the paper

wednesday -X 09 July 2008

today,
after meeting xuan ru.
he took me to interchange and i took bus home.
on the bus,
i had been thinking and thinking.
i suddenly realised that i have so much things i want to say.
i did not went home straight.
i went to block 476 voiddeck.
i wrote the letter that i want to give xuan ru.
NOT LOVE LETTER.
IS JUST NOW THAT LETTER.

when i reach block 476 voiddeck,
i suddenly think of AH PA.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS HIM !
I THINK OF HIM !
how i wish that,
really he did not die.
all the things will remained the same.
i really regret it!!
i regret all the things that i had not done for him!
and all the things that i had done to him!

AH PA,
I REALLY REALLY REALLY MISSED YOU!

REALLY,
if i need 1millions to buy a door that will allow me to go back to the past,
i will work VERY VERY hard for this goal.

i had wrote my feelings on a paper.
but i throwed it away.
i can still remember what i had writen.

"Last time after mama's operation,
I am really worried that she would not survive.
But now,
how i wish that mama will die.
i do not want her to die because i hate her.
IT IS BECAUSE I WANT TO DIE TOO!
IF NOT FOR MAMA,
I WOULD HAD DIE LE.
WHEN AH PA DIE.
I DO NOT WANT MAMA TO BE SAD THAT I HAD LEFT EARLIER THAN HER.
SO I DID NOT WANT TO DIE.
IF SHE REALLY DIE,
I WOULD DIE WITH HER TOO!
living in the world is really a torture.
And i hate it.
i hate to be an human"

posted by piingx

LETTER TO XUAN RU !

2008-07-09T01:00:00.004+08:00

LETTER TO XUAN RU !

Xuan Ru,

You know what?
Sometimes when i am with you,
i would feel disappointed and angry with you.
Therefore sometimes i would looked emo and quiet.
It is because i think that you did not treat me as a best friend.
Not to mention BEST friend.
i think no even GOOD friend.
i know that there's a lot of unhappy things that had happened to you recently,
but you kept it to yourself.
You did not want to tell anyone.
Not even friend.

IT IS NOT THAT I DO NOT LIKE TO STUDY WITH YOU.
REALLY NOT!
IT IS JUST THAT SOMETIMES I WILL FEEL EMO WHEN STUDYING WITH YOU!
SORRY !

Sometimes when i am with you, you would suddenly turn emo,
or sometimes emo than back to very happy.
I know you act de.
you do not want me to know that you are emo.

I really think that i am not good enough to be your GOOD friend
(not to mention BEST friend).
You are the one that are always helping me,
but i did not ever help you once.
You are always good in comforting me.
But me, i can do nothing to comfort you.
i am really useless.
wo bu pei zuo ni de hao pen you !

I can admit that recently i am quite emo.
REALLY SORRY !
i really do not know why.
i think it is all because of
-studies [ i really can't cope with all the studies ]
-CCA [ there is really too much things to do ler ]
-personal stuff [ all the usual stuff that will REALLY make me unhappy ]

You had told me that a lot more people are more stress than me.
I know about this.
But i REALLY REALLY can't take all the stress.
i am not someone that is really that strong to take all the stress.
REALLY NOT !
that is why i can't even manage small stress.
i really can't take all the stress le.

SORRY XUAN RU !

You told me that i can tell xuan they all and tiingx my troubles,
but i do not want them to know.
i had only told you about HE past away.
i had told no one else.

Sometimes when i am emo,
i will indirectly or directly caused you to be emo.
I DO NOT WANT THIS !
1 people emo is enough, do not need 2 !
you must be happy.
DON'T be emo.
PROMISE ME !

wednesday -X 09 July 2008
posted by piingx.

ALL BECAUSE OF ULP

2008-07-09T00:46:00.005+08:00

red wording - angry and stressed [ =X ]

wednesday -X 09 July 2008

today,
really very angry and stressed!!
about all the red cross thing.

=X

because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP],
i have to sacrifices all of my holiday going to 3 contact sessions and 4days 3 night camp.
because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP], i have to do Exercise Neutrality proposal after the camp.
because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP],
i am involved in a lot of unneccessary red cross things.
because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP],
i have to go for the stupid student leader induction(which i do not know what it is).
because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP],
i had wasted all my time in doing unneccessary things.
because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP],
i have so many things to do for red cross.
because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP],
they what also call me to do which i should not be involved in.
because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP],
i had so much stress.
because i go for Unit Leader Programme [ULP],
i cannot cope with my studies [REALLY].

=X

ALL IS BECAUSE OF UNIT LEADER PROGRAMME [ULP].

now,
i REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE RED CROSS! =X

i really cannot cope with all the stress that red cross had given me ler.
I REALLY WANT TO TELL MS JEY AND ZHEN KHAN THAT I CAN'T COPE WITH IT TOO !
but i dare not =X

posted by piingx

10 PROMISES TO MY DOG !

2008-07-09T00:12:00.003+08:00

LATE UPDATE !

saturday -X 6 july 2008

orange wording - extreme happy [ =P ]
green wording - a bit disappointed [ =X ]

on saturday,
yunxin, xuan, dason, xuan ru and me went to watch
10 PROMISES TO MY DOG
(YU GUO GUO DE SHI GE CHEN NUO).
that is really really really a nice movie!
it is the nicest movie that i had watched!
it is also the first movie that i had cried when watching.
i really cried almost throughout the whole movie.
it is a touching movie.

=P

actually tiingx and zhen are planned to watch wth us too.
but tiingx cannot make it.
it is because mama went home and called her to accompany her.

=X

actually zhen can watch with us.
because we bought the 4.20p.m movie at about 4.25p.m
we thought that we would miss the beginning,
but we did not.
the movie started at about 4.45p.m.
yunxin say it may be because they think that too many people had not bought the ticket so they postponed the time.
when the movie is going to start,
zhen had already reached J8.
but she did not want to but the ticket as it looked weird
and also because she had already promised to wacth with simin ler.

=X

tiingx will be watching
10 PROMISES TO MY DOG
(YU GUO GUO DE SHI GE CHEN NUO)
with mac people tomorrow.
actually i want to go too.
because it is really a nice nice nice movie.
but i am not sure whether i want to go,
because it is a waste of money.
HOW??
i really really really feel like watching.
hahas.

=X

HAD A NICE AND FUN DAY ON 5JULY2008 !

posted by piingx

TIRED AND XIN KU !

2008-07-04T23:36:00.003+08:00

purple wording - emotional [ =( ]

monday -X 04 July 2008

REALLY feeling very tired le.
REALLY REALLY !!!
why is it that i have to do so many things?
WHY???
i had been doing things for NOTHING !
but i still continue doing.
i duno WHY?
duno why am i so stupid and stubborn.
i jus can't change this BAD habit and PERSONALITIES !

all these had caused me not able to sleep in past few days.
really feeling very tired !
all these had caused me to feel so xin ku.
somemore,
everytime like going to fall sick like that.
but never fall sick.
i am in de middle of sick and not sick.
had been coughing for 2 weeks le.
still haven recover.
haix.
really dun care le.
DIE BETTER !

wan rest oso cannot.
haven been able to sleep for last few days.
tmr still nid so early wake up for special walk thing.

my 2nd sister jus now say,
"u think u god arh? no need rest. sick le still dun rest. "
it is not i dun wan rest.
is CANNOT rest.
RED CROSS RED CROSS.
u think i wan.
if can choose, who wan?

I BELIEVE THAT THERE ARE MORE THINGS COMING UP AFTER THESE!
MORE STRESS !
MORE FEEL LIKE DIEING !

if not for my mother,
i would rather die.
no one cares.
DIE can no nid care so much ler.

SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT HOLIDAY IS OVER !

2008-06-23T01:42:00.003+08:00

yellow wording - HAPPY [ =] ]

monday -X 23 june

actually i should be happy
that holiday is OVER !
because many things had caused me to be unhappy
during the holiday.

AFTER the holiday,
i should be like more HAPPY !
and be more POSITIVE !
not to think about all the things that had make me unhappy and troubled.

posted by piingx

MY HOPE AFTER HOLIDAY

2008-06-23T01:23:00.003+08:00

purple wording - SAD / CONFUSED [ =/ ]

monday -X 23 june

holiday is OVER !

SAD! =/

i really duno why.
why i had been so moody during the holiday.
almost everyday.

hope that after holiday,
my mood will be better.
and i will be more happy.
NOT moody anymore.
really hope so.

not going to slack anymore le.
really cannot let yunxin win me in studies.
or she will go proud de.
and i dun wan her to win me too.
HAVE TO WORK HARD LE !
CANNOT SLACK ANYMORE !
will try de

someone please help me.
when i am slack.
u can do anything.
so long as to try to make me study.
scold or wat also can.

am i an idiot?
no one will see this SECRET DIARY.
who am i asking help from?

sometimes,
really feel like going to beng kui le.
no one can help me.

posted by piingx

RED !

2008-06-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

thursday - X 19 june 2008, 12:23a.m

Red is the color of fire and blood, so it is associated with energy, war, danger, strength, power, determination as well as passion, desire, and love.
Red is a very emotionally intense color. It enhances human metabolism, increases respiration rate, and raises blood pressure. It has very high visibility, which is why stop signs, stoplights, and fire equipment are usually painted red. In heraldry, red is used to indicate courage.

Light red represents joy, sexuality, passion, sensitivity, and love.
Pink signifies romance, love, and friendship. It denotes feminine qualities and passiveness.
Dark red is associated with vigor, willpower, rage, anger, leadership, courage, longing, malice, and wrath.
Brown suggests stability and denotes masculine qualities.Reddish-brown is associated with harvest and fall.

posted by yuping

Meaning of colours [1]

2008-06-19T00:15:00.001+08:00

thursday -X 19 june 2008, 12:20

this is wat i had found about different colours in the website.

http://reviews.ebay.com/What-Does-Your-Favorite-Color-Mean_W0QQugidZ10000000001684427?ssPageName=BUYGD:CAT:-1:LISTINGS:2

Black----------centering, protection from death, magic, creation, feminine strength
Blue-----------calmness, happiness, truth
Brown---------grounded
Gold-----------great power, inspiration
Green----------growth, healing, abundance
Grey-----------safe, comforting
Orange--------joy, warmth, friendship
Red-----------life force, sex, passion, strength, protection
Red(dull)------sacred earth
Turquoise-----peace, protects from misfortune
Violet/Purple- alchemy, spirituality, leadership
White---------purity, truth, innocence
Yellow-------communication, intelligence

posted by yuping =]

EVEN I MYSELF DUNO THE REASON !

2008-06-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

purple wording - confused

thursday - X 19 june 2008, 12:12 a.m

i really duno why?
why am i always in no mood to do anything?
why SUDDENLY no mood to do anything?
why SUDDENLY feeling unhappy?
why SUDDENLY feeling emo?
WHY WHY WHY ? ? ?
is it that i have a reason or answer behind the question?
or do i not have?
YES or NO ?

really DUNO !

posted by yuping

MIX OF FEELINGS

2008-06-03T02:43:00.000+08:00

blue wording - TROUBLED / STRESS [ =x ]
pink wording - HAPPY [ =] ]
purple wording - SICK / XIN KU [ =/ ]

monday - X 2nd june 2008

the problem of red cross uniform remained UNSOLVED!
asked many people on where can buy a new one.
no one know =x
zhen kang call me ask ms jey.
don't dare to ask =x

TROUBLED! =x

was sick fer no reason
kept sneezing.
suddenly slight fever =x

SICK!

waited fer tiingx to come home.
went to cut hair
okay la.
quite nice and not so thick le =]

QUITE HAPPY!

dog messaged me in the morning.
ask me to settle chinese project.
need ask jun kang when they free.
jun kang said he 4got to take video cam from xu laoshi =x
told dog about that at night.
he came on9.
use his video cam.
found out that i am not free everyday.

STRESSED! =x

tmr got work.
going to call them tmr and tell them i sick.
haf red cross ULP meeting.
SICK sia.
dun feel like going.

XIN KU !! =/

by the way,
went to red cross forum,
know that i had pass the lesson presentation.

HAPPY! =]

need to rest and sleep le.

REMAINED SICK!

posted by piingx =x / =] / =/
[3 june - X 3.02 a.m]

MIX OF EMOTION

2008-06-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

blue wording - troubled/sad [ =x ]
pink wording - happy [ =] ]

sunday-1st June 2008

in the morning,
my mother told me that i 4 got to remove my pen from red cross uniform.
den my uniform were dirty.
i am feeling troubled. =x

then in the afternoon.
my grandmother called and say she wan come our hus,
i then cannot go out. =x

after that,grandmother called say not coming le.
den aunt say wan come our hus.
cannot go out again. =x

aunt come at bout 4 and go at bout 5 plus.

WENT TO BUGIS WITH TING!
although very late le.
but really really feel like going.
bought t-shirts.

and i bought some badges for dog they all.
the badges had dog picture on it.
so cute.
i bought letter
'K' for keizer.
'X' for xuan.
'P' for ping
'Z' for zhen and
'B' for bie.

posted by yuping =x / =]

secret diary

2008-05-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

maybe no one will discover this blog.
do not wan anyone to see this blog.

this blog is now for writing emo or happy thing.
mostly emo ba.

whenever emo,would like to write out de.
but dun wan anyone to noe.